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Living LIFE's Difficulties

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ALFONSO YLAG
- Witty and funny according to himself, but actually he is a real jerk sometimes especially when he's with close friends. Alfie or also known as PINGGOT, is currently residing in Rego Park, New York and working in Best Western. He came from a failed marriage but is blessed with two sons and a daughter. Being the father who should provide, he's constrained to stay in the US for a job opportunity.

He is single but not available... saving his love for that someone whom  he considered LOVE of his life. Quite complicated relationship... nevertheless, hopeful that GOD will hear his heart's desire for a lifetime partner. Being alone, away from his loved ones is the saddest part of his journey through life and trying to earn decent income to support and provide his children the best education is the main reason why he had to work overseas. He wants to have financial stability.

These are his sentiments when homesickness prevails and lonesome fills his heart....

"I often look back and ask myself a lot of WHAT IFs?
What if I chose to pursue my studies in UP? What if I grew up with my real parents? What if I did not marry just because I got someone pregnant? What if I was not born with a silver spoon in my mouth? 
Alfie with his grandparents who brought him up
With my Dad and Mom (my grandparents who brought me up)
What if? 
Would I have the same challenges I am having right now? Would I be more of a successful person? Would I still be happily married and have an almost perfect family?
But we all know that past is past and can never be changed but only be cherished or forgotten. We have to live life today and make the most out of it. 
I always view life to be imperfect... full of uncertainties and tribulations but every time I wake up... I am thankful to the Lord for another morning HE has offered me. I really don't know where this negative feelings are coming from... Maybe, I'm just sad to be alone. 
 During my younger days, I used to be a " happy go lucky type of person" I used to live life on a daily basis, wondering what it would bring me. 
I guess for now, I am doing this sacrifice for my children and the LOVE of my life... ( I hope she's reading this). I want to make sure that before I get back home, life will be easier... that by the time I decided to stay for good, I probably have set aside something for my children's future or may have given them the education they deserve... that I may be financially secured to comfortably live with my future partner in life. 
Alfie's children: Paolo Miguel, Luisa Joyse and Alfonso Gabriel
My children: Paolo Miguel, Luisa Joyce and Alfonso Gabriel
It was not an easy decision though. As I have to be physically away from those I love the most. Never a time came that I don't think of them.  I actually don't blame anyone except myself. Those "what if's" will never help me in any way so, I have to be strong-willed to overcome these difficulties.
Alfie with MI AMORE
With the LOVE of my life
Whatever future may bring me, I'll be held responsible now because I have all the time to prove my worth as a person and be better if not the best.  The distasteful past is behind me.  I may be hurt and felt abandoned but those adversities somehow mold my present and will definitely guide my future. My faith will lead me to the righteous path and I am looking forward to a brighter tomorrow.


22 comments:

  1. That's very touching and I guess the love of your life will really be moved when she reads this. :)

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    1. I'm sure Alfie's MI AMORE had read this, Ms Rochkirstin... He's in the process of rebuilding his dreams.

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  2. Everyone has his own difficulties in life. Life wouldn't be that be enticing without those spices. Nice story and good luck to your love life.

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    1. He's walking with FAITH in his heart... I believe everything will turn out in his favor. I do appreciate your thoughts Sir Paul. :)

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  3. touching story, we all hope for the best and wish for a better life ahead of us

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    1. TOMORROW is another day and every waking morning is a gift from God. Have a great day Ms Melandria :)

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  4. heart touching story. Everyone has their own sacrifices for their families. Difficulties are just challenges for us to build stronger bonds on each other. But whatever we have in between, always keep the love for each other alive...live with faith and fear in God. God bless us all :)

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    1. Your insights are powerful and they make me feel high spirited. I'm sure, Alfie is reading all these reactions coming from sensible individuals like you.

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  5. Homesickness can be a heavy burden but knowing that it's for a good cause eases the load.

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    1. The birth of social networking sites makes it possible to bridge the gap but still... being away physically is unbearable LONELINESS .

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  6. a lot of what ifs in life is what sometimes occur to me. though i am not home sick since I ahve my own family living with me xx

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    1. Nobody can claim that he/she never suffers from unhappiness. Sometimes, we feel gloomy without any reason at all.

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  7. Things we dare do for our dreams and for the ones we love. This is truly inspiring!

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    1. Doing what's best for our family is one great responsibility that bring ultimate joy when accomplished.

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  8. I personally think that we should not have "what if"'s since whatever decisions and choices we make brings us to who we are today.. :)

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    1. These WHAT IFs may come and go but the FAITH should stay. I am so grateful for your honesty regarding this matter.

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  9. I really like this post. Reminds me of my friend in California, USA who is looking for a lifetime partner. I want to introduce him to her, lol.
    Tess

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    1. Hmmm.... That's a good idea but I think he's RESERVED. Thanks for the offer anyway, Ms Tess. Just speaking in his behalf. :)

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  10. It's just inborn for us to sacrifice for our families. our sacrifices of course will bring great future in the end. thank you for this touching post.

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    1. It's a human instinct to do sacrifices without anybody commanding us. Providing for our loved ones' future is always our top priority even it means being away and alone conquering sadness.

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  11. one of a kind inspirational true story. .we are all living in a life of uncertainty, that is why we need to grab every opportunity coming unto us. . like a chance of studying.

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    1. True! We have to find ways to improve our lives. I believe that opportunities come not only once but we have to grab the very first and give it a hard try.

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